Friday, February 13, 2009
HAIZ! such a disappointing day..
just suddenly feel like, where are all my friends? wherE?
felt very "alone" today. but, what can i do? haiz..
what's this man.. haiz
i woke up, play dad's com, went to bathe, went out of my house alone, take train alone, sit alone, went to woodlands alone, go cg also alone. go home also alone..
haiz. what's this? can say, felt disappointed by my friends around me?
frankly speaking, i dont have much friends.
i really missed those times n184 had together..
this week, pm, sometimes sit with vivian..
monday got wilber, vivian.
after pm, immediately i run away. because some 1 is staring at me, wanting to ask me questions, why am i here, where's my cg etc etc.. i really hate it..
after tat, went home lors.
tuesday, got vian, quan, sinyee, (3infront from n184) gerald, jiaying.
we went to songfa
after tat we went to marina square play..
quan go play arcade, gerald leave soon, jiaying, me vivian staring at the machine..
haha, so cool.. i remember i caught a mickey with just 1 buck! haiz.. but cant get the minnie with 30+ bucks.
okay, quite fun.. den after tat, we went arcade find quan, in the end, sin yee n vivian play the puzzle bobble.
till 1030? den we walk to mrt station meet wilber to take train home together.
wednesday, only got me, vivian, sinyee.
okay, had quite some fun bully sinyee la.. i keep knocking her head, den i say. i hit once, u must hit the opp once..
after pm, eat songfa again, saw johnson =X but we nv eat with him, cause we order le.
den, we walk to city hall mrt, too shuttle bus to suntec, cause vivian wanna buy bubble tea. i also buy. hahha. it taste not nice to me, but taste marvellous to vian.. hahahha! den we went to carrefore awhile, den jiu go take shuttle bus back to city hall mrt take 857..
thurs, today, all alone
on wednesday, me vivian n sinyee was talking.. i really missed those years with n184..
really.. in the past, i did treasure, but, not very treasure..
really, u nv cherish, u'll regret..
i really regret not bringing friends, nv push sin yee n nicholas hard enough to bring friends. taking everything for granted, i did regret alot..
i cried like more than 1 week lor. everytime thing of it, i'll still cry..
pain lah, really dont want to accept this fact.
why?! haiz..
i hate the 'running away' feeling, haiz.. can i just do what i want now?
frankly saying, i HATE people to control me, hate ppl to ask me do this n that, i hate ppl who keep asking, i hate ppl who keep pressing into my life.
if i want to say, i'm very open to say to anyone abt anything one.
the more u force, the more u ask, the more i feel irritated, the more i hate it, the more i dont want answer. stop pressing into my life lahs, if i want to say, i will!! the more u ask, the more i will run.. stop asking those things that i dont want to hear, i dont want say.
i only will answer ur questions anything other than cg n relationship.
i hate ppl to bomb me last min, i dont like last min changes, if tell b4 hand, not that bad lors, i really hate it to have last min things. haiz. sucks lah! everything sucks!
family? i dont have allowance at ALL! what to say? what can i say?
my hp is cutting already, the cut off ytd, but my dad scolded them, the resume, but soon, it will cut again.
so, cant contact me? find either sinyee, wilber, mayb vivian, quan, evelyn..
i dont know.. haiz.
studies??
Olevel got 21 points.
Eng 5
Maths 6
Chinese 4
Sci 3
CH 5
POA 3
quite sucks la.. i got into RP customer relationship n service management..
2008 COP is 22. 3rd best course
2009 drop to 25. HAIZ!!! is like, become a lousy course, nobody wanna go. haiz. whats this man,, why everything so sucks one.. SUCKS SUCKS SUCKSSS!!!!!!!
haiz.. EILEEN CHIN!!! stupid!