Leenx

2010-12-16T13:00:00.009+08:00

SUPER RANDOM!! HAHAHA

PICTURES FROM MY IPHONE..

2010-12-16T12:52:00.001+08:00

Okayy~ i am kind of happy. HAHA i dont know why.. LOL, maybe cause im mad!

2010-12-14T12:42:00.004+08:00

I don't know why, i suddenly look at my blog and decided to blog after a few years..
HAHA

To those that wonder how am I, I am fine. :) Thank You
I am happier than what i used to be :)

Hmmm,

I have been thinking of many things which i don't understand why and can never figure it out...
Lots of why like this.. why like that.. i dont want.. i dont understand why.. sigh sigh sighh~

Another thing that has been in my mind...
It has been more than a year since i left, have been missing a lot of things that i have been through since i was 5 - 6 years old till i was 17..
I am sure that many of them thought i left because of THAT particular reason which i am quite sure 99% of them did. However, it is not up to you to judge or say anything. I thought that all of you have been learning not to judge?

And anyway, i can assure you that i left not because of him or work.
I know you will think: "you sure annot"..
Yes, i sure.

Life seems to be better than the 1 - 1.5 years i have been through will all the 'forcing of myself to go'.. I still believe in God and I believe that he is all around. So, I left doesn't mean i dont believe.

I myself can see the change in myself and i really hope that i didn't..

After 1-1.5 years of being with people i am not comfortable with and not talking, it seems like it have become a habit for me not to talk to people.. My mouth can't seem to open and Now, i can only talk to Wilber and Vivian. Maybe Jian Quan if he is free to go out with us and also some people in my workplace.
I love my workplace because i find the joy of being here rather than there. It is not because of money that i left. But, it is more of the joy of being in my workplace.
I know that many of you would not understand it because you have never been though it. So, please stop commenting and talking about me or him or her or them or us.

I hope i will not always be reminded of them because whenever i think of it, i feel really sad. And when im sad, HAHA, i will SMS vivian and she becomes sad too =.= im so bad, but....

Seriously, i have been sharing with my barbie vivian many things and happen to see that we both are going thru the same things, maybe thats why we can talk alot of crap. I believe that 1-2 best friend that understand you, know and agree what you are thinking is better than 1000 'TRUE' FRIENDS who will just disappear when you need them.

And, me and wilber are happily together, though we always scold each other, but i think its Fun. HAHA

At least, i am happier of being who i am now and at least happier than what i used to feel in that 1-1.5 years. It sucks to feel being at somewhere where you feel that you don't belong there.

Okay~ i have time to write all this nonsense is because my eating-friend didn't come today. So im just eating pocky for lunch..

Jiayou people, do the things you like to do and feel happy about it.
You have only 1 life to live, you will never know when you are going to leave this place, make sure you cherish and love everyone around you and the things you do. At least you won't die with regrets. Life is short, don't do things that you know you have no joy in doing.

Going for my internship soon, my first choice was citibank, 2nd choice was charles and keith..
If i can't get into this two, that means God has other plans for me bah.

Wish all of you people happy :)

Loves,
♥Eileen♥ :)

2010-05-18T11:28:00.001+08:00

I am super sleepyyY~ i wanna sleep ):

I am too hardowrking! Working on weekends, study on weekday..

I dont even have a rest day. HAHA,
I seriously very tired.. im falling asleep!
& I realise i like work more than class now.. omgggg..

Later going out celebrate ppl birthday, and tml is test!! Where got time studyy~~ BOOOS!!!

2010-05-13T09:08:00.001+08:00

Hohohoo, show you some cute pictures of Tricia & Alicia.

Alicia [Ke Ying]

Tricia [Ke Xuan;XuanXuan]

2010-04-28T15:32:00.007+08:00

RANDOM PICTURE! THE MOST 'OMG" cake i think she have ever received
Dont look at me like im mad can?

Why? got UFO upstairs huh?

I poke ur cheek ah!

FINALLY u all get look at me to take a proper photo

Birthday girl dont stare stare
YUMMY!

Dont showing off both of ur 'CHEST'
GHOST!

NICE! Love the background! pretty!

Pretty pretty!

Seem like its fake? lol

This photo is nice, if can show the background, it will be the best pic out of all

Dont jump down! lol

MADNESS!

2010-04-28T15:28:00.002+08:00

I always logged into blogger almost everyday but always updating my blogshop instead..
Life was quite good now compared to last min, see ppl face, scared this scared that..

Celebrated my precious chow qian ting vivian mummie birthday. LOL wth, i think she see liao will kill me..

FUN LA! i love the photos man! all thx to wilber yip nice camera phone..
SIAN! If quan could rent a car, how fun it would be. HAHA
QUAN! everyone waiting for u to rent that car, so please do. lol

Nowadays, i keep 'chiong' to school. damn sian. i will try to wake up earlier man..
Everyday going to school alone, think of lots of things la.
thinking about church again.. BOOS.
hahaaaa, i miss N184, miss all the fun n joy. >.<
It's all over. Looking forward for more other fun with vian quan n ber. Weee~

2009-12-31T18:03:00.002+08:00

Had lots of fun this christmas!!
Spending with my 3 good friends, fun till nth to say.
HAHHA!
Went svc together (:
Then we went to kat ku teh & eat till $47, after discount $40 (:

Then we went to marina square to catch catch.. hee hee hee
Then!!

We go arcade play the beating thing. lol, me wilber & vivian
Then quan play his standard car thingy..

Then the bowling people called, & we play 2 games each.
The most throw face thing is Mr tan jian quan wanna try to act like someone & did stupid things!
HAHHA! He purposely swing this hand, then throw the ball into the pillar lane & act like it was the ball fault. LOL!

Okay la, overall very fun cause we meet early morning then go out till late..
Weee~ I wanna go out again!!

I guess next will be my birthday. woahahahha!! yea yea yea!! sound so fun~ heheeee.. Looking forward man!

2009-12-24T22:03:00.001+08:00

Cough cough*
SICK!! ):
Counting down for Xmas myself on my bed ): sadd!!

BOOS!
MERRY XMAS!
Weeee~
Excited for tomorrow. Hope everything goes well as planned (:
HOPE DONT SEE PEOPLE I DONT WISH TO SEE (:

2009-12-14T14:06:00.001+08:00

Wee~ Super tired today!!
Slept at 1plus, wake up 6plus ):
Siann!!

Ut later, i just browse through nv study! too tired..
Maths sucks too!!

We only started PPT at 1.20pm (class start 1.30)
I basically nv do anything cause i know nuts about exponential!

Work was alittle boring and sleepy cause Eilene & Kat not around ):
SIANN!!

2009-11-18T14:33:00.001+08:00

WEEE~
Hahaha, shopping ytd with my sis.
LOL
ok, im totally broke..
Buy 2 shirt for myself. i tell u. SUPER CUTEEEEEEE!! OMG!
its really damn cute one lor. lol, pig popping out. lol!!!
Then bought another pink one. and bought same one for my mum.
Then my sister buy 4 or 5 shirt. LOL
we totally broke le.
somemore she still ask me help her order online shirt for she, husband, 2kid. lol, same pattern
HAHA damn cute (: (:
LOL! Siann~~~~

2009-11-12T12:43:00.000+08:00

Quite unhappy la.
Over the weekend kena bomb of about $140..
But quite happy now, some one reserve toys for about $80+ after discount $70+ maybe getting more.. Hope he wont bomb. cause im broke =X

2009-10-14T22:18:00.002+08:00

Sigh~
Other than sighing, there is nothing else i can do.
Sick & Tired of this crappy life all of you gave to me.
Do i really these shits from all of you? have i owe u anything?
What's the problem!! why make ma hate u all!! TELL ME LA!!
I really wish all this had never happened! I REALLY WISH!
I really want everything to go back to normal!! I REALY WANT!!
But now, eveything seemed to be so blur, so stress, so shit. all because of all of you!
cannot just give me peace?
i didnt wanna backslide! and i haven yet.
Some one call me ex teacher eileen. Since you all have conclude that, then so be it lor.
Trust me, i didn't want to. but you forced me to. sigh~

I dont know who is that bloodly freaker than say craps to him, tell him things about me.
Only thing i can say now is mind your own business, dont poke your nose into other people affairs. If you think this is helping me, u are totally wrong.

2009-10-09T22:05:00.002+08:00

HOHO!
Gonna be so soo busy this 2 weeks.
Need to work, pack my room, paint hte house, wait for the mattress to come, put back all my stuffs, my toys pack properly etc..
WOO!

Lastly, i dont like my class.
Too selfish. Maybe its just the first week. But...
Sigh~

2009-10-01T13:58:00.003+08:00

Sigh, super tired this few days.
One day is kena disturb by a phone call.
Then, another one is my mum come off aircon. Then i go toilet jiu can't sleep.
Today? i wake up, see an sms totally sian diao. Then i cant sleep anymore.
Haven got enough sleep la..
And i am not happy everyday! boooo!
I wanna work. haha, working place i like(:
People are mostly nice(:

HEE! I HAVE SALES YTD & TODAY! im soooo soooo happy!

2009-09-30T19:11:00.001+08:00

Sighh.
To be very frank, Im not happy at all.

Be it you will see my blog or not, all i want to say is, stop pressuring me.
Its not that i am guilty or I have something to hide.
Is always when you call me, NOTHING is ever good.
I treat this one 1/2 Months i have as a break from YOU & the rest.
Can't you just let me have the peace for another 2weeks or so?
Don't you know that by doing this, It will make me super hard to go back?
there are more people out there who need you, BUT I DONT NEED.
Leave me alone is better for me. Can't you just leave me alone?
Im 17 going 18, I know what im doing.
There is something there that is holding me back from leaving, please dont make me rather give up that thing im holding onto because of your 'nonsense'.
Im Big enough to choose who i want to be with, who my friends are, who i wanna talk to, where i wanna go, what i wanna do.

Also, I dont see a need for you to HARASS my family members.
You dont have the rights to.

2009-09-28T12:45:00.002+08:00

How i wish my brain can be Happy and not thinking and thinking on everything i see and read.
My Mind is very powerful, somethings i read made me remembered the past, some makes me sad, some makes me guilty, some makes me happy. hahhahaa, crap. LAME SIA!

Okay, obviously im sooo bored.

2009-09-28T11:52:00.002+08:00

Come to think of it, Its hard to know who is real and who is not by their words.
In this 1 Month, i have learn that i leopard will never change its Spots.

Okay, the story goes like this A is working in this company first and wants her friend to come and join her in this company. But, as this company is advertising, B came for interview.
(They are from the same foreign country)

Then when the bosses are having lunch with A, A keep telling them that B is not serious with the job!! Don't employ her. She is a architech, she wont do well in sales. And she go straight onto B face and say, u not serious, dont work! Let my friend have the job.

And B does not care because she is waiting to be transfered to the company design thingy to be an architech. This is just the tempo Job.

Then, B knows A dont like her and try to be nice to her. Because B is a very nice person and believes that her good can change A attitude towards her. And they started being very close and shared secrets.

But now, seemed like everything is wrong. True colours are out.. nah, a leopard never change its spot.

We can be nice to people but people may not appreciate, but, u must know who are good people that deserves to be nice. Dont because of 1 person and start being bad to everyone.
Human hearts are wicket, beward of who you are talking to, beward of what you say. Even your Best friend may betray you. But it does not mean everyone will do that la.. Just becareful and observe. Dont trust people so so easily, it takes time for a friendship to be build, it needs times to build also. =D

Chim. anw, the story is just 1/3 la.. LOL

2009-09-24T13:29:00.002+08:00

IM SUPER BORED!

BOOOOO

HAHAHA, IM GOING BROKE SOON!!
Can my pay come faster? OR More sales for me please?

http://www.adorable-plush.blogspot.com/ :)

Okay, u obviously know i am crazy and lame.

Crap, this shows i am really bored.

Im going city hall now to meet my customer and buyer.
Basically not earning because i sell, and i buy. LOL

2009-09-18T23:33:00.002+08:00

Sigh,
I AM NOT HAPPY TODAY! ):
Sigh. why am i being 'said' or 'scolded' by everyone today. bloody shit people all around.
crap man.
sighhh~
Eat lunch and dinner all alone.
And, if u know me, i dont eat myself. so lunch, i went out to buy buscuit + the brownie i bought at famous amos yesterday. Dinner, dad ps me again, and i ask him dabao for me..
sigh, i totally moody today. maybe is because of some other private* stuff.
sighhh~

2009-09-15T19:18:00.002+08:00

MEMEME(:

HELLO PEOPLE! so long didn't see me already right(:
WOAHAHA, Only 4 ppl has seen me since the day i MIA. HAHAHA
SY, WY, DADDY and MH.
Life is still like that.

Ps. SINYEE, 11months has past. LOL.

Okay crap, life is still kinda bad..
Haha, Kat is my new friend, she is nice(: HAHAHA.
So random.

Sometimes i really wish that many things didn't happen.
So many regrets in my life and how i wish many things didn't happen.
Now i like my friday saturday and sunday. Got money and people's company.
Unafraid people say me this say me that. If i am at my usual place on fri n sat, i will always scared people questioning me. they dont find it irritating but i do. ask n ask n ask. DONT TRUST ME THEN DONT ASK LA. my life, i dont need anyone of you to come and act one nice. I am big enough, i am 17 going 18, not the 5year old kid.

BOO!! haven has any business for about 1 week. why why why!!
When i have sale and lower the price, people dont buy. Aren't they wierd?
When i have no sale, i at least have afew email and buyers. grr..
I have updated alot of items. take a look okay(:

Www.adorable-plush.blogspot.com
I'll give discount to you if i know you la.. HAHA. byeee

LOVE,

EILEEN

7.27pm

2009-09-07T01:08:00.002+08:00

Life is good(:

Happier now!

2009-08-27T00:31:00.002+08:00

HELLLOOOOOOOOOO!

Will be like going to MIA for 1 month because of some reasons..
secret =P
okay crap, kinda worry about tomorrow ): sigh~~

OKAY! finally, so far, open shop for 9days le.. Sell total 6items. 2 big, 4small(:
hopefully will have moreeeeeeeeeeeee.......

SELLING CUTE PLUSHES AT GOOD PRICES! PRICES REDUCED! DONT MISS IT!! www.adorable-plush.blogspot.com

2009-08-17T12:14:00.004+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE! IM BACK!
busy with my blog shop thats why..

www.adorable-plush.blogspot.com

Please please go see & buy thigns u like ok.. LOL

thanks thanks!
HAHA go n support OK..

i spend more than the amount a catch lor; its for the fun (:

It belongs to me & my lover (charissa)
#E = my toy
#C = Her toy
but as for now, she haven catch any, so its all mine.. hahaha, thanks people!

2009-08-10T11:08:00.002+08:00

The biggest miracle. she call EEEEEE and stretch out her hands wanting me to carry her! ahhaha, first time la. she always dont want me carry her. Hmmm, but however, its because my mum keep carry her dont let her down. and she is being transfered here, she will turn and tell me wanna go down. so i will let her down so she can walk herself. LOL. crap.

2009-08-10T10:35:00.010+08:00

2nd round

SOOOOOOO CUTE!

this thing is very ugly. wondering why the order this crap

Xueli took this doremon with head facing the side. below i have 1 that is straight headed. erm, this is half couple la. cause 1 is close eye, 1 open eye.

Today i catch more eeyor. and i have a total of 12. but xueli take 3. give my friend 3.

MP3! 1GB. The thing i feel its most worth. its damn small and cute!

hahhaa, can have it for new year.. didnt know i get this couple lor! until when i on bus.

HAHA, this is the straight head one. cute right.. give it to my good friend.

Xueli took the brown and white. i took 1 only..

HAHHAA, wanted to get one more mickey, but no more le. so no choice. xueli is kind enough to give me a pair and take the minnie only

=P get all this with the help of the guy working there. after we hit the checker, we ask him refil, and he did. woahahaha.. then below the big head pooh is the jackpot

This belongs to my elder sis; moving minnie with nursery songs

Behind of this

JACKPOT! after catching all those medium sized crap.

MICKEY!

BAG. hahahaha, how to ever bring it out?

I spend alot on this crap. LOL. my chirstmas present. BEcause it is super hard to catch and it seemed like it is dropping. i tried and tired.

FIRST ROUND

2009-08-05T15:50:00.002+08:00

Sigh.. no mood. totally spoilt by someone..
im having a bad headache now.. very bad..
still need to go visitation.. i need rest. before i faint anywhere..

sigh~ my 300allowance all USED UP! haha, within a day. LOL. i spend a total of 600 ( tithe, transport, food, give mum, etcetc) and mostly, i go play. catch toy. it's my interest la. just like u girls like to shopping, but its how much i want to catch it. HAHA, okay, for this n next month, NO MORE for me. cause im totally broke. someone owe me a hundred bucks. lol. =P whatever crap.

I catch a SUPER SUPER DUPER big stitch!! I CAUGHT IT BY MYSELF! though its alot, but i treat it as my chistmas gift.
Plus a micky and stitch. (medium)
And afew crap la. LOL. enough for me i know. will blog again another day. im totally so tired.
i need a break. seriously, before i die someday. its just suddenly i have a headache. im kinda stress by many things around me.. sigh~ ):

I GOT MY A for communication UT AGAIN!!! YES!! PRAISE GOD! (:

2009-07-30T12:17:00.002+08:00

This is not mine. its yvette. damn cute!!

CUTECUTE!!

IT CAN MOVE

left is mine. mine smaller): right is not mine

2009-07-30T12:11:00.002+08:00

Went to chanel blog and see some quizes.hahas, and i find it quite true for me too. top and bottom part. quite for me la..

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-07-21T19:56:00.026+08:00

HAHAHA artistic photo ehh..

tooth decay

2009-07-21T11:11:00.002+08:00

sigh~ sometimes i really regret treating some people so nice last time..
where they dont even remember about you after time..
sometimes i think, why is there a need to have friends where they dont even treat you as one.
it's not kind of jealous la, but when you think of times where they have probs coming to look for you, and dont need you, throw you aside, its makes me wonder why am i so stupid to have such friends. anw, basically, most of my friends are like that. can't find a good one. lol,
there are times i think i dont deserve one, or is it that i can't find one. whatever la, i am not going to find one either. i have better things to do.

this is life la.. everythings is just so unfair. to me. LOL whatever, like i care.
Just move on..
My life is kind of screwed up and mixed up after oct08. i really hate everything now.
How i wish i can just MIA, go missing so that i will have time for myself, rest, do all that i wantt without people control and pestering you over the same questions everyweek. buay sian mehs?
No means no, yes means yes. if you dont believe, what for ask?!
i really think that my life is screwed up. coming to think of all the shit that is happening, it's really shit. As time passes, i think that i'm happier last time. Every year, i'll say it's the worse year ever. but every year is seemed to be worser than the past years. i tell you, last year 08- now, it's the suckiest shit i have ever had. sigh~ everything seemed to be destroyed and everything seems dark now. sigh~ can you all just leave me alone.. please.

2009-07-21T10:54:00.004+08:00

trying to act cute with the hairband =X

2009-07-20T11:06:00.001+08:00

i didnt go down eat again..
cause my lover is not here. i guess she is happily sleeping till now because she nv reply me. LOL
usually morning she'll reply even when she sleeps..
nobody invited me down to eat. LOL

whatever.. okay, tell you all something..

VIVIAN CHOW QT IS SO NICE!
she came up to get CD from me with a waffle(:
omg, so nice so nice.. hahahas..

okay, i am totally shock.. because i ask her if she eating then buy. then she nv reply..
nv ask me what flavour.. just buy.. TOTALLY SHOCK okay.. hahas. thanks mummie!

2009-07-17T23:04:00.002+08:00

Feeling sad..
was reading someone's blog.. which i dont really know who..

it made me realise what will happen if my best friends or family members leave me one day..
i really hope that the day will not come.. it made me realise once again that i should cherish the people around me more because we will not know what is going to happen 1second later..

life is short. nobody knows what lies ahead or what happens later..
life is unpredictable, b4 you regret, cherish all of them. leave no regrets in your life.
once gone is gone forever..

especially those that are attach for very long. you better cherish them because you will know when your loves is going to live? 100years? 10years? 1year? 1day?
Don't wait till you regret, you will really regret and live in guilt all your life that you should treat him/here better. those small quarrels you have, you will regret playing truant, scolding him/her over those small wrong things they do which you think it is so foolish now..

love your family people, please. life is fragile. remember, cherish.

i have no time to write. tired n need do rj.. i really had lots of thought today. i nearly cried. thinking what if i lose this and that.. i know i am nuts. but it really made me think.. i will try to change and love all of you people.

2009-07-16T15:26:00.002+08:00

sigh~ kinda bored now..
UT later on. and again, im super anxious during ppt. i dont know why even though i know i am not.

HAHAA, today during lunch, almost all of our class chinese girls was looking at BAGS!!! it was like so fun. and we was like, deciding to all buy the same one. And vic says we will like a bims (bimbos) LOL! i dont mind, cause it is nice.

OMG!! damn nice): i want.. but.. im broke ):

how i wish i have all the money in the world! sighsighsigh~ ):

Have been thinking alot of things lately, about life, school, friendship.
many things always dont go they way we wanted. and this is life.
Somethings in life are beyond our control.
can i have more time): more freedom): no commitments):
feeling so bad to let caleb to help me visit this 2 weeks cause of my stupid UT..
hope i can do well.. i need a break la): so tired everyday.. ):): I WANT TOY!! hahhahahaa =X

show u all the links:
1. http://tw.page.bid.yahoo.com/tw/auction/b48547736?u=mishop67 SHOE

2. http://tw.page.bid.yahoo.com/tw/auction/d40786972?u=002-002-002 HOT PINK

3. http://tw.page.bid.yahoo.com/tw/auction/b49014583 WHITE ( the one 6 or 7 of us wanna buy together)

4. http://tw.page.bid.yahoo.com/tw/auction/1203390743?u=002-002-002 blue.

IT IS DAMN COOL):
prices should be: $20.50, 9.21, 13.10, 15.50
somebody help me to choose! i know u all like come my blog nv tag, but for this time, help me. LOL from the best, rate, which 1 is nicer n worth. rank it!

2009-07-14T19:19:00.004+08:00

HMMM.. maths UT today,
okok la.. half half lor.. i dont know which formula to use, anyhow pluck in. no time to think.. limited..
sigh~ hope can get good grades but it seem damn hard..
tired week.. i hope i can rest this week ):
still got communication UT.. sighsighsigh. hope can get another A. but i have no confidence.

After school took 169 and 858 as usual. hate the long journey feeling.
Went to kfc to find parents and sis. full (:
Hmmmm.. after that walk into a accessory shop.. saw a nice HP stripe. nice seh.. my sis n i each buy 1, dad pay.. dont know why he so happy..
Normally he wont even bother to come into the shop and walk away..
Then, went popular, he buy a calculator for me YAY, finally..
then the person ask which 1 i want.. my dad say take more ex one better. i was like, OMG, really?! is that youu hahhaa.. no la.. i only choose 2 casio one and decide one 1. If i am not wrong, everything is the same compared to my secondary school one. yay(:
Then my sis go renew popular card 1 year, my dad ask her renew 3years. OMG, why is he so generous this month.. my allowance this month is =D=D but i am still broke =X ahahhaa.. Thanks dad&mum(:

feeling quite ): for past few days.. getting pissed off easily, so dont irritated me. but dont think too much, its not period. LOL. whatever.

hmmmmmm... I WANNNAAAAAAAAAAAAA SLEEPPPPPPP

2009-07-13T19:37:00.003+08:00

Okay, no mood for the start of the day. Took 858 as usual.
At my bus stop, it is likely to have seats because ppl will mostly come up from MRT.

My bus stop is alwasy crowded because, most of the bus will turn into the interchange. and they have to walk very far to mrt. therefore alighting one stop b4, which is my bus stop will help them save their walking time.

I board 858, take a seat. to be considerate, i sat inside.
Then, got a man sit beside me, OMG, im totally freaked off and disguisted):

there is a very stink smelly and i am not sure if it is him. 80% it is.
u know what?!! his elbow keep touching me.. then i was like so piss off la.. omg lors.
then i started to stare at him, u know what he is doing?!!

HE IS USING THE PLUCKER ( I Dont know what is it called ), and was plucking his moustach all the way. ALL THE WAY from yishun mrt to woodlands.. damn unhygienic lors. i wonder why there is such human that is so disgusting and unhygienic.
I msg 3 person.

1) Lover
2) Mummie
3) Son

To share with them the digusting-ness. LOL
(i remember once i with charissa, we saw a lazy, open a box of dead prawn on the train, standing, centre of attraction.. Touching the prawn, looking and admiring the prawn. She took out, touch touch, put back, dig her teeth with her hands. then took out again, touch touch, put back, dig the nose. OMG la.. train leh.. if at home i have nth to say la..) back to the topic..

3person have different replies, and its so funny. lol..
i cannot stand it la.. i keep shifting in, baring with it for 15mins..

Okay, UT today.. enterprise.. sigh~ quite easy quite hard, i dont know what grades will i get.
I got back 4 UT ( UT 1) ,
communication- A
Sci-C
Enterprise- C
Maths- D+
Cognitive- have out yet( somemore what LEO got prob must retake, now haven even mark jiu give us another UT)
my grades so sucky.. my last week module grade too. sigh~ cant concentrate leh. no mood. sigh~ sucks..
Gonna back up for UT2 now lors..
Sci, enterprise and cognitive over le..
left communication and maths. hopefully i can get A for comm again. but it seemed impossible. sighsighsigh~
need to study for maths tomorrow): bye

2009-07-10T23:30:00.010+08:00

Dont ask me how much i spend. hahaa, its alot. LOL. broke this month! die ah!

Sun in magazine!

STUFFS I BOUGHT this month.. i think there is more. lol

2009-07-09T10:24:00.003+08:00

sometimes, somethings are never good enough for someone.

haha, rhyme ahs! lols..
tired tired tired. I WANT TO GO HOME!!

sleepy): but got science UT tml.. sigh~
My eyes are the tired ones.. not my brain..
kind of swollen abit.

many things in life are just not we want. in fact it is just everything..

LEENX

10.44am
overall, it's still a broken promise; its a lie

Will you be there...

2009-07-08T15:48:00.001+08:00

cute(:!

open up(:

2009-07-08T15:39:00.001+08:00

HA, say dont want to waste money but still go there again..
photos will upload again..
but, catch quite a number of small toy. lols..
nearly catch the big milk!!
then i tot i no money le. so i left.. sigh. then got 1 person use 2bucks=1try to catch it..
heart pain):

but its okay la.. how i wish i have alot of money to catch all i want!!

2009-07-06T10:01:00.002+08:00

Sigh~ got the very sian feeling..
LOL! my lover is not here.. nobody eat with me ):
the rest go down nv call.. ask they nv answer):
boos... science is physics thingy.. i dont know sia..
no mood lehs.. sigh sigh sigh~

OKAY! saturday, after children church, i went shopping with mum(:
bought a leggings 12, a little miss giggles tee 10 , a yellow turdle neck long sleeve 10 and a shoe 15.
hahahahaha! after that, steamboat!
cooL(: sian, missing of some poeple..
lols, got me vivian, wilber and sinyee. with my mum and sis..
then we eat till super full. then we play majong..
hahahahah! so cool.. though no money played.. then evelyn join us at 9plus.. then quan at NDP
ahahahahs..

Sunday, went to service.. then go MS!
sigh~ spend money again. but i didnt play alot.. around 3bucks. and waste other people around 10bucks.. waste money ): !!
omg i must stop!!!! sigh..
so bored.. so sian, so omg!!

I wanna eat ):

2009-07-03T12:20:00.005+08:00

OKAY! i am damn bored.. hahahaa

kinda disappointed ytd..

spend alot of money ):

sorry people.. hahaa.. 3 of us i think total spend 70$ on the stupid toys..

lol.. and i bought a wallet.. NICE! (: from wallet shop.. pink pink (:

I caught sort of quite many things.. but i changed it, cause only the hello kitty nice..

so i change 2pooh n 1 piglet to hihi kitty.. lol

total of 4 hihi kitty, 1 seal, 1 box choc, 1 small handkerchief, 1 hp thingy.. i think. lol i know it is not nice. but we play is for the jackpot thing. sigh~ totally regret.

My wallet(:

The elmo n cookie monster she aiming. LOL

2009-06-28T21:53:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA.. i am happy today(:
lalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

2009-06-26T22:24:00.003+08:00

hahaha.. i am kind of over-work.. too tired..
feeling sick now. i dont rest, i know fever is coming to find me.. LOL!
sighhsighsigh~ i dont like studying at home. though i can sleep extra 1.5hours=X
but elearning is not my style la.. the forum is laggy. i prefer today, communication we all do it on msn. thats faster n more cool. no ppt needed unlike enterprise. so laggy and so much to do.
H1N1 is very scary.. omg.. you wont know when will it be coming.. i hope that God's protection will be upon everyone i know so that all of us will be healthy and strong.
cheers.

2009-06-26T00:17:00.002+08:00

sigh.. i am sad..
had many things flashing through my mindd.
why this happen, why that happen.. why is everything so shit and i really hate it.
why does all the bad things always happen to me..
when is the last time something good happen? which is really good.. (other than the free toys)
sigh.. why is life so shity all the time..

can all these thoughts stop coming into me.. it makes me super sad and feel like crying no matter where i am..

until today, i kind of think of who really love, care, willing to sacrifice..
no, not my family. sad to say.
Yes, they have their good points. they had never beaten me, thats what i really thank God for.
But, they could not give me what i want..

My mum CPF not enough funds, can't transfer to my dad's one, too late. got to pay using my own edusave account.....
My secondary school fees and Olevel fees are not paid by them... iam super upset with that..
I really envy those people that can buy the things that they want. the things that they needed, go overseas shopping, go out shopping etc.. HE thinks he is more important than us.. Why are people so selfish... when get pay, keep spending on shits and give us that little bit left. People's allowance are double or triple than mine.. Mine little bit still must pay for transport. For this month, i will bare with it. my dad just found a job after slacking for 6months..
hope that things will be better in my life in EVERY SINGLE expect of my life.
seriously, none of the aspects are good. none.

come to think of it, my life is really so sucky.. sometimes i wish that i could give up somethings in life so that i will not be so burden and stressed..
how i wish i could do what i want and not have such a ROUTINE life.
Every week from wed-sun, its like a routine to me. doing the same thing.. getting tired and worn out.. When can i ever get out of this routine life.. sigh..
somethings u want to let go, but you cant. sometimes you will think it is wasted if you give up just like tat as it is hard to climb so far.
there are many things pulling me back and forth which i really don't know how the hell to solve it.

As for cg matters, it is solved. I am back to johnson in N336.

Now, from 25june-1july, we will be having Elearning at home.
it sucked.
it really do. we have to do PDT, worksheet and ppt on our own. grades will be given but not added into module grade. so what for we do? sigh..
i dont even know how to use that super laggy forum.. sucks..
sighsighsigh.. how i wish i have more free time to go out and do my things... i need rest. i really do.. dont always see me smile smile (for my classmates), i am only happy with you all because the things i am stressed in is not you all (dont say for those groups which i am totally pissed off).
sigh~ sometimes i think that sharing with non-church friends, they will give you the encouragement you are looking for. They will understand more than the people you think will understand. because, they do not understand at all. all they will tell you is to pray, blah blah blah..

At least people won't scold you for you mistakes.. sigh~ thoughts over thoughts came into my mind just now.. but i dont want to share. dont ask me to. i will hate you for forcing me; i will not tell either. sigh.. i need some rest now. hope that things in life will get better.. maybe going out with my sister tml. but there is prayer meeting.. i serously don't feel like going because i feel like going out.. relax myself. and going out with my family members may let you not to think that much about the things I am concern about... sigh.. give me a break. stop pestering me and questioning me. you have no rights, i will really hate you all for that.. sigh.. life is like a piece of shit.

2009-06-25T00:00:00.003+08:00

EDITED

Charissa part

Mine

Went with my lover to Marina square to try the elmo. stupid elmo is impossible to get..
then we tried playing the small ones. basically, that guy helped us to catch alot of toys.. small toys are not changeable. but he change for us n throw toys into the hole for us.. omg.. totally shock(: the teeth is charissa want. the hello kitty is i said.. lol.. okay, the elmo thingy is not in that machine, is another 1, so is catch ourselves. (: thanks lover! n sorry cause no elmo):

2009-06-24T23:47:00.003+08:00

I LOVE MY POOH! OMG!!!
HAHAHAS, i really love it!! (:

2009-06-24T22:07:00.028+08:00

This photo was like 2weeks ago we took?! webcamming after class.. ahhahaha. i think it is a mixture of 2 days.. top is with my lover. below is with some other classmates(:

Pardon me for always giving that face. i dont know why. lol

I asked her to drop something behind, incase something else pops up..

Okay, i look like 1 idiot. lol

what is my lover doing?!!

YUMM YUMM(:

lao ah ma. lol

feel so cool doing that lame thing..

GHOST!

chocolate pearls?

what am i doing? cockroach? LOL

this too, incase something is beside me.. but now, is my lover's love

my hair is tasty(:

Vanessa favourite doing.. lol.. imitating her

SO UGLY

CONCLUSION: black and white look better. LOL

They had never seen money b4.. its their 1st time

2009-06-16T14:10:00.000+08:00

SO TIRING! BORING!!

woahahhaa, going home sleep again.. cause from tml on, i'll be busy ):
i dont like!! i like to be a slacker.. ahhahaha! siao

2009-06-15T15:27:00.001+08:00

ITS SO BORED HERE!!
INTERNET SUPER LAGGY LA!!

OGMS.. HAHAAS. SO TIRED.
FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL SO SHAG ):
FACI SUPER SLOW, HAVEN EVEN GO THROUGH 6P, ITS 3.30 NOW!!

2009-06-09T23:14:00.005+08:00

HAHAHA! went to cut hair with my sister..
can't stand all the spoilt hair, keep dropping.. so i decided to go n cut..
wanted to cut abit bangs. LOL.
but ah, cut halfway, i think it super dont suit me.. so i ask her cut abit slant, not so bangs.
so is half half abit abit..
behind she ownself do for me..
dont dare to go n see..
i know it's not nice la.. b4 cut nicer, but.. bo bian la huh.. cant paste back.. hahaha

On the bus, on the way to cut..

feel so children.. hahha

2009-06-09T23:04:00.004+08:00

HAHA, random(:
Tricia & my self-photo. woahahha(: =P

CUTE?! it cost 5bucks! hahaha..

TRICIA(:

ME. woahaha.. zi lian=X

2009-06-09T22:59:00.002+08:00

WOAHAHA, bought some stuff in attributes. super cheap la..
Benny hinn's book =$3
Sy roger audio cd=$2
AR bernard whole stack of disc=$2

2009-06-09T22:44:00.003+08:00

SUN IN 8DAYS MAGAZINE! (: cool!

2009-06-08T01:56:00.004+08:00

Hahaha.. okay, i found out many people reading my blog..
i am shock. seriously shock.
i tot nobody come la..
imagine all of u think i am very happy smile smile de..
then c i blog till so sad..
then will think i so wierd.. i dont know how face ppl now..
i am like, OMG! u all came? HAHHA..
i know there is more. LOL! whatever.. i am really feeling so paiseh now.. i wanna dig a hole..
Okay, somebody say i should not hide..
Okay, then i thank all of ur concerns for me this few weeks..
I know reading sad things make u sad.. hahas, thanks all of u! <3

I guess things are better now.. life will be better for me, so does it for all of u! jiayou(: Once again, THANKS! I LOVES YOU ALL(:<3<3<3

♥Leenx

1.59am

2009-06-08T01:49:00.003+08:00

Okay, today i am happy. (:

Tml i am busy.. holiday isn't really holiday.. zzz

Tml meet evelyn 4pm at riverwalk, then 6pm prayer meeting.
after that gotta rush to camp challenge campsite by 8pm for XW zone meeting..

Okay, super tired for sure. only around 10plus..
heng i got 169 to send me to my house opp bustop. hahaha (:
wanna rest now! good night(:

LEENX

1.52AM

2009-06-06T22:14:00.003+08:00

Okay, can count as 3/4 settled?
made my decision.. no changes?
i hope la.. i didn't die even though i say its my doom's day (*laughs)
Must relief now.. hopefully everything can be quickly done with..

She also seem happier without the two of us?
we're like a budren to her for the past 8 months..
sigh~ i wonder what is on the way for me..

SOS is really all the way talking about me la..
so many times, everything something happen to me, the coming week sermon will somesort say me? its just like, saying what i going through trying to provide a solution for me? it true la!
not the first time. sometimes after bs, then straight go svc, then pastor will some sort talk about those things.. its totally coincident la! really!!
haas.. nvm..

thanks for all of your concerns (if u did concern) (*LOL)
I wonder if there is how many secrets reader..
i guess there are many you know.. LOL..
hmmm.. have been Emoing for quite some time.. hope to get back on track.. but hope that i will not feel forced? unhappy?

Okay, was reading SY 8days just now.. SUN HO!! (:
and i go n buy it.. to collect la.. so cool.. okok.. soon coming out again in Iweekly.. do remember go buy! (: its cool la.. the pictures.. BLONDE!
However, people critise her la.. i dont know why..
why people can't be just open about it and treat her as just a celebrity?
so what if she is a pastor's wife? okok, enough of saying.. i took some photos.. will upload like, soon? HAHA (:

2009-06-05T16:39:00.003+08:00

tml is my doom day.. u happy now?

sigh.. i really cant sleep..
sleep also dream of stupid things..
wth.. sigh~ u know how tormented i feel in my mind?
it's defeating me now..
at some point of time ytd i feel like breaking down. game over, the end..

sigh~ i really feel like giving up everything u know...
what u all want? sigh.. feeling so lost now..
i want to be alone for awhile.. grant me please..

sigh.. going to SOS later.. hope i can sit alone..
seeing u all makes me stress n even more paranoid.
i hate going forced.. being questioned..
why can't just let me be what i want? sigh

2009-06-04T21:42:00.002+08:00

I thought it should be a place of love, joy, peace.
But i dont feel any of it.
i am not happy or peaceful at all.

giving me a choice to decide? ARE U SURE?
is giving me to choose among the no choice n there is nth to choose.
Because of that 2 call n 2 msg, it affected me that much.
yes, it did.

Play game also cannot play properly.
sleep also cannot sleep.
tired like shit..
cry the whole morning. yes, i really did. from 9plus to 2pm..
i really dont know what to do.
why u all force me till i have no way to turn..
u all what? Loan shark? i owe u all what? time? love? fellowship?

i rather things goes what it use to be than now i at the edge of mountain. no way to go, only can jump down
hoping there is a pillow there to carry me to another mountain and secretly climb down myself w/o anybody knowing..

my eyes is super duper tired. i really dont know what u all want from me..
i keep thinking, why things goes this way.
you all think i want? think i playing?
who more miserable? this bloody thing tormenting me like hell..

u dont believe, ask michelle.
however, she nv c i cry la.. she c me play game, she know he msg me.
she say: wa, the msg make us lose the game.
sigh, its tormenting me more than what you all think..
the sarcasm, the purposeliness, it makes me so disappointed.
sigh~ yes, i am scared. the whole week thinking HOW HOW HOW.
go here cannot, go there cannot. go jump down can?
then HOPE la, the pillow come rescue me?

sigh sigh sigh..
went visitation... dont know if it is the last... sigh~
i know, i am such a big disappointment to all of you..
what you all want? stop expecting from me!
ya la, i am not THAT good as he said.. so? me is me la.
c for yourself. dont hear what people say...
and it is because of you, told u shut up dont want shut up, cause all this shit for me.
happy? my life in a even greater mess. HAPPY ALREADY!
happiest is you right? take this years of me treating you like a sister is treating it to the wall la..
If i know this will happen, i did rather be alone all this while...

what will life be...
what should i do..
what decision should i make..
why cant i feel happy?
why am i being tormented?
why why why!!
why must you all do this to me..
do i look like a criminal?

2009-06-03T23:55:00.005+08:00

Can all of you get out of my life.
i really really hate all of u you all.
WHY MUST MAKE MY LIFE SO DIFFICULT N MISERABLE.
WHY MUST BE SO SARCASTIC HUH. YOU THINK I DONT KNOW YOU ALL ARE TRYING TO BE SARCASTIC?!
CAN'T I HAVE SOME PEACE? WHY KEEP PESTERING ME N DISTURBING ME.
WALAOS AYE.
WHAT YOU ALL WANT?!!
WHY KEEP FORCING ME TO MAKE DECISION.
I REALLY HATE YOU ALL LORS.
I REALLY FEEL LIKE GIVING UP EVERYTHING.
STOP IT B4 I AM GONE.
I TELL U ALL, STOP IT STOP IT!!
CAN PLEASE STOP MAKING MY LIFE EVEN MORE SUCKYIER? I REALLY REALLY HATE YOU ALL. I BEG U ALL LA, GET LOST LA, BRING ALL OF UR SARCASM AWAY WITH YOU, I DONT NEED IT.

2009-06-03T23:00:00.006+08:00

Out to bugis with Charissa n Vanessa

Okay, supposing wanted to go city hall and we did. only me n charissa; suppose to meet 3.15 at bishan mrt, but she late. meet her around 3.50? went penisular again. hahaha.. she bought jeans. LOL! charissa buy super many things okay! LOL

but mostly is at bugis. AND! we walked there hors!

then 7plus vanessa came.. LOL then go eat n buy some stuff. 9plus go home(:

Pardon me, my face looked the same. LOL

OUT WITH MUM N SIS!

My bag, bought it super cheap at penisular =X

This is my sis one.. 5bucks =X

Mine, 5bucks too. LOL not tat nice la. but i need shorts!

This dress going share with michelle.

Look alike? My 2nd sis. woahaha

I know, i look like an idiot.

Went to bugis, then penisular then went to clarke quay BKT eat. HAHA..

Happy day(: walked alot. buy alot of stuff too(:

Love going out with family n school friends and some of my good friends in church.

HAHAHA!

2009-05-31T22:38:00.017+08:00

Yesterday was a bad day in the morning. Got scolded from the kids mum. sigh~ so sad at that point of time. Then after that went to buy burger eat n gt down to expo. After svc kena say for 35mins. sigh~ i guess i have the decision in mind now. break for 2 or more months n then decide. but my cch how. sigh~ i dont know la. why must force me to the extreme!! grrr. forget it. dont wanna think of the stupid things. Lets talk about fun stuff!

PHOTOS PHOTOS!! really enjoyed yesterday(:
SO FUN!! firstly, went to food fair, then meet wilber n vivian.
Then, walk around, then decided to go city hall.
Then meet quan at marina sqaure. As it is around 11pm, we dont know where still can eat.
so, we went to walk around n saw subway still open.
So we just go there. cause kfc got no chicken thigh =X HAHAHA
went to see my
toy machine shop (prize stage)
nth nice.. haha.. then i nv try..
then when we buy subway, quan come n go play his arcade. then we eat n when when quan come back, we took photos. Then, michelle become our photographer(:
We took lots of photo and had lots of fun.. it was like 12plus le.. then we try to go out of marina square cause many exits already close. Then u can see we have photos in black n white. it was my idea to take tat stupid photos. but i really loved it!! really lors. i think it is so cool & fun.
Then we proceeded out and went to merlion there? we walk to the behind there, slack till around 1.30am like that, then walk back marina square macdonals. And then, we took photos again. LOL! We at there till 2.40am when everyday is tired.. LOL
Then we go esplanade toilet, took night rider at around 3am, reach home around 4.10am.
Then can say have proper sleep at 6.45am-1.45pm.
I am still very tired even till now. LOL. play spot the difference for 4accounts till i tired till can't see.. hahahhaa... okokk, look at photos(:

Photos should be seen down to up. LOL. i lazy to adjusts. have so much

Bought 1 snickers, 2mint mnm for 3bucks at food fair. And have this nice paper bag(:

McDonalds(:

Photos in McDonalds

VIVIAN=P

Wilber. playing quan nitendo ds lite

Quan, eating his mc spicy. LOL

MISHU! woahaha

ME(:

Playing the mario cart thingy. dont know who took it. so ugly! LOL

On the way to McDonalds(:

On the way to merlion(:

MARINA SQUARE(:

In the lift.

Sitting on the chair when we come out of lift

LOL! thief~

I LOVE THIS THE MOST(:(:

the angle not nice. leg kena cut, so keep re-taking

SUBWAY(:

ALOT ALOT people looking at us when we take those photos. i'm serious!

12.52am

LEENX

2009-05-29T08:07:00.003+08:00

so tired.. so bored..
have been sleeping like 6 hours a day.. omg..
i can't take it anymore.. i can't have a good rest till it is sunday.. sigh sigh sigh~
so many sighs lor.. can't stop sighing. hahaha. crazy..
today is communication module with science UT later..
i wanna sleep!!!!
ZZZ

LEENX
8.09am

2009-05-28T15:38:00.002+08:00

hmmm, going fail or get C for my enterprise..
sigh~ i didnt talk much..
my team ppl all so strong.. sigh~
i didn't present well. i talk the least, nv ans any questions.. nv give comments.. sigh sigh sigh~
i'm super tired.
slept at 1plus ytd.. sigh sigh sigh~
full of negative thoughts n discouragements.. sigh!~

2009-05-26T15:21:00.002+08:00

somtimes, things are just like this..
going through and facing things alone, when people sarbo you, you're just goana die.
i dont know what is going to be my answer, but, sigh~ everything is just like this...
ren xin xian e. evil hearts of the people..
what is really the thing that matter most?
u still believe in yourself, doing what you want to do..
i wonder why people always think highly of me, where i dont even believe that i can do it.
maybe i will be a disappointment to all of you when i decide to go to somewhere that i can be more happy, do what i want, be who i am.
maybe i will just stay where i am, forcing myself to just DO IT. and life will be still the same, tormenting, sucky, cant do what i want, i am unhappy..
If i am going to tell my outside friends, they will say, huh why like that one, go only la, as long as u are happy n it is ur decision.
what if i tell my church friend? they will say it trials, it is doing for God etc..
yes, i love my ministry, alot. but... sigh~
some decisions i make, leads to another thing which i dont have choices over.. somebody, please, tell me what should i do..
7months have been like hell to me..
i dont care who reads my blog now.
it is my blog, u not happy, dont read la..
it is just what i think.. you think i dont wanna put password? i can't find that code only..
i know got alot ppl reading but nv tag.. i know.. but.. sigh~ IT IS JUST LIFE

2009-05-26T12:11:00.005+08:00

AHHAHA, i know la, got alot of my voice, cause i videoing what! what to do.. LOL!

I haven c the video yet, just upload first.. i know my voice is not tat nice, just bare with it. if not, dont c la! LOL